Over the last few years, I’ve helped more than 2000 women (not counting the 1000’s of others touched in our free communities) end their struggle with their body and their food.
It’s been a privilege and an honor, not just because of the food piece, but because of what women get to do when they are free from the chains of this struggle.
However, it didn’t always look this way for me…
It wasn’t that long ago that my life was a vicious cycle of binging, dieting, and repeating.
I struggled for over a decade. Now I’m proud to say that I’ve been free for over 5+ years, and I’ve never been happier.
But the road to Food Freedom Forever was grueling. I had my struggles. I had my setbacks. Moments where I felt like I’d be stuck forever.
Then, I discovered 3 simple but game-changing truths about food, my physiology, and freedom.
Now, I don’t have cravings anymore. The urges to binge are gone. In fact, I can say with confidence that I will never binge again.
It’s not because I found the ultimate workout. I didn’t learn to push myself harder or up my willpower and stick to the perfect diet, either.
It’s because I rewired myself from the inside out.
Watch the video below where I go deep into my body-food saga. I’ll share how it started, how it played out, and the three main takeaways I learned along the way so you don’t have to struggle like I did.
It all started around the middle of my high school years. Back then, for various reasons, I put a lot of importance on how I looked.
I remember gaining a little bit of weight in my mid-teens. It wasn’t a ton, but it was enough of a shock to bring on a ton of fear and insecurity.
I started forming all these beliefs about my worth and the size of my body. I don’t believe this now, but at the time, these thoughts crippled me:
I thought that the type of boys I wanted to date wouldn’t be with me if I wasn’t a certain look and size.
I didn’t think I’d get into college and have the school experience I’d want if I was overweight.
I thought that extra pounds would keep me from being a competitive athlete.
I even thought that being the wrong size would keep me from getting my dream job and opportunities in life.
Translation? I believed that being overweight would stop me from receiving the love, connection, and life that I desired.
Sounds crazy, right? But these fears aren’t superficial whims or ego trips.
Love, attention, and connection are core human needs. Needs that I thought I couldn’t meet because of a few extra pounds.
All that self-rejection and insecurity sent me on a decade-long quest to change my body. Let me tell you, it went a lot further and got a lot crazier than I ever intended…
Of course, then weight loss schemes started innocently enough. I went on diets. I took a few diet pills here and there. I had a cheat meal from time to time after weeks of strict dieting.
Then cheat meals turned into cheat days. Cheat days became cheat weekends. Weekends so bad that I’d wake up feeling bloated, swollen, and disgusted with myself on Monday morning.
Then it got to the point where I couldn’t get through a day without binging now matter how good of getting back “on track” my intentions were that morning.
To control these massive overeating spells…
I’d try diets, fasts, and juice cleanses to undo the damage.
I worked out like a maniac to offset binges. I even hired big-name personal trainers and entered fitness competitions to have a goal to stick to thinking that would control me.
I convinced myself that I was doing this out of a passion for fitness and nutrition. Turns out it was just an obsession with getting weight off my body.
Even more damaging was what I believed about weight loss…
I believed that if I could just lose weight, all of my problems would just disappear.
So I tried every diet and followed every fitness guru out there. Then I realized was it didn’t matter who I worked out with or whose diet I stuck followed no matter how incredible they were.
It wasn’t about the food. It wasn’t about the exercise. The harder I tried to control both of those things, the more chaotic my life became.
The scariest part was that through it all, I did some serious damage to my body.
The restrict-binge-repeat cycle and the yo-yo dieting left my thyroid suppressed. My pituitary gland stopped functioning nearly completely. My hormones were out of whack. I was close to Stage 4 adrenal fatigue (Doctors would say that’s bedrest and burnout).
Then, there was the acute kidney failure that put me in the hospital for a week after one of my fitness shows. This one shook me to my core.
I remember being in the hospital bed. My dad had come to see me in the hospital, and things weren’t looking good.
My blood pressure was spiking. I couldn’t catch my breath. Then I looked up and I saw the terrified look in my Dad’s eyes, knowing that he couldn’t help me.
Just like that, I realized that my actions weren’t just hurting me. They were tormenting the people I loved, too.
Now, I wish I could tell you that this was THE moment that I miraculously healed myself. But unfortunately, after that epiphany I tacked on another six years of food-body hell.
But it was a powerful turning point for me.
I decided that I needed a change and I couldn’t keep hurting those around me the way I was.
I set out on a holistic healing quest. I was determined to heal myself, then show the world how to heal, too.
I became a certified health coach. After graduation, an international coaching organization hired me to manage their health division, and I was on my way.
At this company, I worked under many holistic healing professionals. There was a nutritional healer, an Acupuncturist and naturopathic Doctor, and 2 renowned coaches… just to name a few.
Being around all that knowledge seemed like the fast-track to my goals. I’d learn from these holistic professionals. I’d heal myself. Then I’d show the world how to heal, too.
That was my plan. Then there was the reality…
I did focus on learning holistic healing, particularly through nutrition. But that food-focus had some unintended consequences.
The more I concentrated on healing through food, the more I thought about food. And before I knew it…
I was binging again.
Even with my company’s top coaches, doctors, and healers helping me. I still binged.
Now, I wasn’t going through two drive thrus and secretly eating in my car while crying my eyes out anymore.
Instead I was hiding in the Whole Foods parking lot gorging on whatever “health foods” I could get my hands on.
Then that fateful day came, and it all fell apart.
The head of the company asked me to submit a current image of myself for their website. At the time, I’d put on another 20 pounds. Needless to say, that request hit me like a ton of bricks.
I was telling others how to be healthy but I couldn’t get myself that way. I felt like the ultimate fraud.
So I resigned my position and left the health and wellness industry altogether. I promised myself that I was still going to help others get healthy, but I had to start with myself.
That determination sent me on a new journey.
I pursued personal development. I studied modalities like Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP), hypnotherapy, and traditional therapy. I researched eating disorders and how they’re treated. I dug deep and learned a lot.
After a couple of years of this self-improvement kick, I began feeling more confident. I upgraded my belief systems and let go of a lot of self-sabotaging behaviors.
But I still thought about food. A lot of the time.
I still had cravings. I still had mini binges or at minimum a feeling of compulsion towards certain things. There was still a lot of emotional eating.
No matter how much healing I’d done, food still had way too much power over me.
Then there was a particularly bad binge experience that sent me over the edge. I remember laying on my floor crying. Feeling broken. Feeling confused. And feeling like something was deeply wrong with me.
At this point in my life I felt like I only had 2 choices:
I would check myself into an inpatient eating disorder center. OR, I would try Overeaters Anonymous.
I chose the latter. It proved to be the proverbial last straw moment, too…
I had a wonderful woman offer to support me, and we chatted for the first time. The conversation we had was one I’d never forget.
She told me that I’d be addicted to food for the rest of my life. She said that I’d have to abstain from carbs and sugar forever. She told me that I’d always have this “monster” addiction, and that I needed prayer and devotion to get through it.
It would take this white-knuckle abstinence from temptations 24/7, and for the rest of my life. THAT was the only way I’d ever be free.
It was so confronting:
Was I a food addict? Would I struggle with this for the rest of my life?
After a debilitating cry session on the floor. I came to my senses.
NO. NO. NO F-ING WAY. NO.
I refused to accept this as my truth.
Then I thought about all the other women who came to these people for help, and were told the same story.
My no grew – it wasn’t just taking a stand for myself, it was taking a stand for all women who’ve ever felt or been told the same.
I was not an addict that would have to struggle forever – I don’t believe anyone is.
I promised myself that I would NOT let anyone brand me or any other human with an “eating disorder” until the end of time.
Sooo, I hit the books AGAIN…
I embarked on a deep-dive study on addiction. I wanted to learn what it was and what it wasn’t once and for all.
From there, I dug deeply into neuroscience. I learned about how neuroplasticity works. I also did my homework on brain and body physiology.
Through all of my prior experiences and my exhaustive research, I discovered three powerful truths. Three crucial truths that set me free.
Truth #1: Weight loss is not about the perfect diet or the ideal workout. If weight loss or binge-control is the goal, diet and exercise alone are not the answers. In fact, obsessing over them makes your body-food battles significantly worse.
Truth #2: The deep emotional work matters, but it’s also not everything. Emotional work is a big deal, and a significant part of the process. Self-love and body positivity counts. But they won’t get you there by themselves.
Typically, there are some physiological things that are going on at a deeper level that drive eating behavior, that literally have nothing to do with who you are as a person.
Truth #3: I was NOT broken (and neither are you). Through all my ups and downs, I learned the most important truth of all. I wasn’t binging because I was broken, flawed, or hopeless.
I didn’t have an addiction that would plague me for life. There were specific brain and body triggers that were driving my urges to binge, and they needed to be addressed.
Turns out that conventional diet and exercise wisdom was pitting me against my body. It was supposed to set me free, but it kept me stuck in a cycle of binging for over a decade.
Now, here’s the bottom line…
Binge eating isn’t about willpower. It’s not about self-control. You don’t need 10 years of talk therapy to heal yourself. And you definitely don’t need to brand yourself with an eating disorder for life.
It took me over a decade to learn all of this, and it made me realize my true mission.
I needed to teach what I’d learned to others so that they wouldn’t suffer as long as I did. That’s how the Binge eating blueprint was born…
First, I coached women privately for a few years with great success. They’d break free from their struggle in 6 months to a year, but I wanted them to have freedom faster.
So, I created that path with our signature system: The Beating Binge Eating Blueprint
It’s an 8-week journey that has helped 720+ women heal their struggles without years of therapy.
You don’t have to be in a crazy 15-year struggle. You can change your life in a lot less time than that, and we’re here to help!
That’s my story, and I hope that it inspires you to learn more about breaking free, too!
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